There Is A Something Wrong

Since I was a kids, I feel like there is something unsual and weird with myself. Sometimes, I can’t control that. Something that make me like “this is not myself”. But I don’t how to stop. And now, when I grew up that thing still make me do that and control myself. I don’t know what it is.

Recently, I often to to search on youtube or internet how to resolve that thing. I just remember when I read Al-Qur’an surah which tell about satan. At that moment I just reads three verses and suddenly I’m like fear and trembling. I don’t know why that happened. And I decided to not continue reading that surah because I really scared wkwk.

I know it’s sound weird for y’all. But, I really wanna do r*q*y*h or something like that wkwk. I wanna to know what happened to myself. I don’t wanna be like this forever. This is so frustrated.And for y’all, I’m not as good as y’all think about me, soooo far from the word “Wanita Shaleha”. One more I’M NOT AS GOOD AS Y’ALL THINK ABOUT MYSELF.

Thank u